a attack

ive just had one.

my worst yet.

i'm sitting in my house with all the lights off, it helps me calm down.

a website tells me to light a candle when i feel like this, or 'grow a plant from seeds' but i don't have time for that.

Symptoms of an anxiety attack include:

Surge of overwhelming panic Feeling of losing control or going crazy Heart palpitations or chest pain Feeling like you’re going to pass out Trouble breathing or choking sensation

Hyperventilation Hot flashes or chills Trembling or shaking Nausea or stomach cramps Feeling detached or unreal

i'm not naturally a worried person, and i don't know what triggers it, its a mystery.

i feel really sick. i think i am meant to feel sick though, its all part of the package.

i was sick last night, but that was due to intoxication not anxiety.

i am imagining my lungs as just one big cigarette

its not a pretty sight.

i hate those dreams when you dream about a situation that you have just been in, but different

and you were drunk

so when you think back, you can't tell weather it was your dream or real life.

i'd like to think it was real life, but thats just pushing it.

its always about him too.

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tonight is his night.

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i can't wait until i can't wait again.

goodbyefornow

oh yes and i went to a party last night.